As you can see I am sticking within my limits of under 700 calories on a daily basis and it’s coming on amazingly well. I am feeling amazing for it, I have so much more energy and I am beginning to enjoy life again
I am also exercising more regularly and I am creating a deficit, I burn more than I eat, so therefore I am loosing weight.
How do you deal with being around food?
I get very anxious when I am around like i am obsessed with calories and fat content I am always thinking is this too much for me to eat right and then I am thinking how the hell am I gonna burn it all off.
Not great at the moment, I have put five pounds so I am having to up my exercise a little just for a few weeks/pounds if i want to reach mid way point of 135 by xmas.
Today I am doing great So far I have eaten some cereal (149 calories) and drank four cups of tea and had half a bottle of diet coke. (60 calories) Then I skipped lunch and did some walking round town (burned off about 100 calories) and tonight I am just having something small, then I am going on my bike for a while and im aiming to burn off in total 3,500 calories to lose a pound in weight.
Today I had an emergency appointment with someone at my MH team as I have had a tough couple of weeks the last few weeks and really it’s getting too much for me right now. I am getting a lot more stressed out and depressed about a variety of things that are happening in my life right now and really I don’t know how much more I can take. So I spoke to this gentleman, he was very reasuring and I told him everything, how I was feeling, I was bit pissed off when I saw him and he judged me for the amount of money I owe. He was like that’s a small amount to be in debt.
What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
The thing that excites me about reaching my ugw (which is now 105) is that I can’t wait to wear size 6-8 clothes and and I am looking forward to showing off my body no matter what people say, it would probably be a huge shock to people and i would probably look completely different to way I am now. But I am gonna be one happy chick when I am there. I am certainly not gonna let my parents or CPN stop me.
Have you ever purged? If you have, describe your first experience.
I sort of purge quite a lot, I mean I don’t go to over board just when I have eaten a lot, I don’t like the feeling of fullness but i only make my self sick say once in a blue moon, although I do have urges which can be hard to control.But I do exercise excessively according my CPN the other week. I can easily burn off 2500 calories and cycle 20-30km on my exercise bike, which is quite a lot in one go. It’s a regular thing I do to lose weight.
How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia?
I don’t know how I feel about the terms pro-ana and pro mia simply because I am 50/50 on it? For some people going pro-ana/mia has made them feel better, I wouldn’t recommend loosing this weight my self, but ever since i started cutting down on calories I have gained so much energy and not lost energy. I do think afer a few months it becomes addictive.
I.e i lost 8 pounds a few weeks ago quite rapidly and now because of lifestyle changes I am trying to lose another 8 pounds and so on.